It is pretty scary around here. I am very disheartened.
Let's make a checklist:
Husbands depression/anger are worse.
My therapist who happens to be his therapist has NO understanding that the man is worse or more dangerous.
I don't have a therapist anymore.
My son has started smoking because of the stress of living with a father who is constantly cycling through the honeymoon/tension/explosion stage.
All of us are giving up hope it will ever end.
It is hard to get across what it's like to live with someone who won't accept or return your love. But then, on other times, he does and there is a good reward and you keep trying. But then out of nowhere, the attempts at conversation that ended in smiles and good will one day are met with angry resentment on another.
I need your prayers, friends. The cycles are getting shorter and shorter, and I don't have the help I need to make it through them.